Nothing in this world feels more intrinsic to me than reality itself
i want to understand all this
this was my first thought when i unlocked the ability to think for myself and stopped acting out how others had programmed me till that point in my life ~ about 6 years ago
so far i haven’t come across anything in my life that felt nearly as intrinsic as reality itself
and i don’t think someting like that even exists — how could it
understanding what is, is the only logical conclusion that i can come up with when i experience being alive
and logic feels right to me, logic is what makes me feel aware in the first place, so why wouldn’t i do what it tells me to do
i experience my reality, i don’t understand it, so that’s what i feel like i have to do
and don’t they say you should follow your feelings, well that’s what mine are telling me
ig that’s true for everybody to some degree, but most ppl are just better at not caring or distracting themselves than i am, i tried that too, it did work for a while
but this didn’t stop these moments from happening, the ones that made me you realize: you don’t know shit, you are just pretending you do, but rlly u don’t – and i am so sick of pretending
i don’t understand what is and everything other than trying to change that feels fake to me